Stay Or Go?

Return to work after baby was born or stay home? How did you make your decision?


I feel like I didn't have a decision, like it was made for me. Who are these people who get to stay at home? Not single mothers, that's for sure. But even when I was with my ex we couldn't have survived without my salary. I only stayed out 7 weeks because that is all I could get paid for. Hopefully next time (next time??) I will have more time saved up. I would have loved to stay at home with the babe, but I just could not afford it.

A Fine Day

I went snowboarding last week. It was a weekday, so there weren't a ton of people.

The day was beautiful. The snow was wonderful.

I might have fallen a few times.

Massachusetts has never looked so beautiful to me.

Look how wide those trails are. So much snow ready to be carved.

See that lake? That is where the water comes from when they make the snow. Fun fact.


I did not go with those people. They have no idea that I have a picture of them.


Or that it is now on the internet.


I went by myself which was actually really nice. I could go at my own pace. I could go on whatever slopes I wanted to go on. I met a few people and left when I felt like it.










I can't wait to go again.

Economic Hardship

It is really hard to qualify for any kind of economic hardship. I'm having a hard time paying my student loans so I was interested in deferring them for a bit. But they insist I make enough money to pay them. They don't know how much I pay in rent and that I am in an expensive housing area. They don't know how much I pay to daycare. They don't know how much money I spend just getting to work every day. And they don't ask. Luckily, I was able to forbear my loans for a few months. Hopefully I will be able to pay them then.

In Which Raine Fucks Up

I am sad. Again. It's been a rough couple of days here. I've been horribly busy at work then I get home and just want to lie in bed.

I feel horribly guilty because I lost (had stolen) all of the money I got from Christmas. I was supposed to put it in my vacation fund and now it is gone. Most of it was from my parents and I feel like I squandered their hard earned money. Of course I didn't really, I just irresponsibly left my purse with my coat at a New Year's party. I feel like I fucked up.

At work, I work inside a hood, it's kinda like a cabinet. Usually I sit down in front of it. Yesterday, I had to stand and I kept hitting my head on the top of it. Over and over. I got really angry and punched it. Of course that did not help, it just caused my hand to hurt a bit. Thankfully there was no one to witness my adolescent behavior.

I just want to stay home and sleep, but I am too busy to do that. Maybe I will anyways.

Tell us about something you punched.